Only One
What if I never told you? What if I didn't care?
What if I tried to control you?  What if I wasn't there?
How could that be fair?

What if we saw the future getting swallowed by the sun?
Closing in around you, leaving nowhere left to run
Watch your whole world come undone

You were not the only one, you were not so scared
You were the only one who's there

When nobody really listens does it matter what you say?
The excess of the moment that you're paying off today
While your whole life slips away

Ode to The Eggman (Heartbent Abused)
Love is like a razor blade that cuts you up inside
Love is like a hand grenade you pull the pin and hide
Heartbent abused, I’ve lived a lie
My souls tired and I don’t want to try

And when you’re down and out
Cos nothing lasts forever
You came along with a smile; you came along for a while

Time is like an old cliché you’ve heard this all before
Time is like a good roommate you go until you’re sore
Heartbent abused, I’ve lived a lie
My souls tired and I don’t want to try
And when I’m down and out
And when I’m down and out
I can’t stop thinking of the things you do every step away
Brings me back to you
You came along with a smile; you came along …

Never Asked For More
Well to you believe its madness got me staring at the wall
And the darts you’re throwing at me make no sense at all
I remember being stranded between the flicker and the flame
That's when I realized I only got myself to blame

I never asked for more than you could give or I could take
Sometimes the only way to make things heal is let them break
It's a tragedy, you've disguised as your dream

We were flying down life's highway with the pedal to the floor
Living fast and taking chances always getting more
We never had no way of knowing that the end was coming near
But if you take the time to listen it’s amazing what you’ll hear

Another tragic scene you’ve disguised as your dream

Cold Rainy Days
She screams I want you out of my life as I'm crawling for the door
Shards of so many picture frames on the floor

And I'm not the kinda guy that likes to decompose or wear sorrow on my
sleeve
When every welcomes been worn to dust there's nothing left to do but
leave

Every line on my face (is) reminders of cold rainy days

So I dig myself another hole contort this shape you'll find me in
Searching like a parasite for fresh skin


Float
Won’t you come and play in my tangerine tree?
I’ll show you things that you will never see
Won’t you take a ride in my neon aeroplane?
We’ll jump into the atmosphere you’ll never be the same
And we’ll float

Would you like to come with me to different space in time?
I’ll make sure you don’t exodus until you’re satisfied
Whenever she condenses me a tear falls from my eye
Then I’m the water in your garden (it) gets so hard to sympathize
Float

Wouldn’t you like to float away?
Back to the warm place that you feel
Get on the carpet ride away where we can be free

Won’t you come with me to a different state of mind?
We’ll float off into yesterdays leave tomorrows far behind
And we’ll float

Forever
I was tired uninspired
I was taken down easy but you’ll never know
Exactly when I’ll go
You’re pathetic, copasetic
Babbling on and on and on and on
With all your empty rhetoric

I heard each word that you said
They’ll say long after we’re dead
We had the kind of love that lasts forever

I was washed up, feeling left out
I was being hung to dry and I don’t know why
There’s blackness in my eyes

I want to fly to the moon
Our time has ended too soon
We have the kinda love that lasts forever
I choke on each word that you said
They’ll say long after we’re dead
We had the kinda love that lasts forever,
Forever, forever, forever


Mercury
And every star up in the sky can't seem to hide the fear that swells inside
Got me sailing on to Mercury and Mars
Last night I drank myself to sleep pretend I hardly noticed you were gone
You got me sailing on to Mercury and Mars

And I don't always know (right from wrong)
And I hardly have the strength to carry on (sing my song)
(get along) and will anybody notice when I'm gone? (sailing on)

At night I lie awake consumed by fears about my own mortality
Fears of sailing on to Mercury and Mars

And I don't always know (right from wrong)
And I hardly have the strength to carry on (sing my song)
(get along) and you’ll probably be happier when I'm gone (sailing on)
Mercury and Mars
Outta My Head
Woke up this morning looking sorry for myself
Carousel keeps turning and I just can’t get off
Went to a doctor maybe a pill could cure my health
Yeah my world keeps spinning and I just can’t get off
What if I called you up and told you I was sorry felt so lonely
And tomorrow looks much worse off than today … than today

I’m outta my head, feeling so lonely, losing my God forsaken mind
And I feel like I have wasted all my time

I try to remember where the whole thing all went wrong
The machine keeps churning and I just can’t get off
I Feel like I swam in anesthesia for so long
My spirits numb and I just can’t get off
What if I told you you were right and I should never second-guess you
And or question anything you ever say … you ever say

And the moral of it all is you’ve got to catch me when I fall


Used to Be
She sits naked by the phone wondering when he’s coming home
She’s wondering what she’s doing here
It’s the same day after day he gets up and goes away
Confessions fill her diary

She says I was only waiting for the world to come and shine her light on me
But it never came and it’s still the same as it used to be
Used to be, used to be
Trapped inside the here and now she longs for how the way it used to be

Photos fading on the wall remind her of when he used to call
To say that he’d been thinking of her
Now the phone it never rings. He’s moved on to other things
She can’t ignore what she won’t see

She was always waiting for their lives to change and finally live their
dreams
But it never changed and it’s still the same as it used to be
Used to be, used to be
Trapped between the here and now she longs for how the way it used to be
She can’t stand what’s in the shadows
If she could just go back somehow and change the now to how it used to be


Every night it feels so cold growing lonely getting old
She’s haunted by his memory
He’s been gone for several years She can’t stop the flow of tears
Why couldn’t she find happiness?

Now she sits there waiting for her time to come and set her spirit free
But it never came and you can’t go back how it used to be
Used to be, used to be
Trapped between the here and now she longs for how the way it used to be
She’s still haunted by his shadows
If she could just go back somehow and change the now to how it used to
Trapped between the here and now she longs for how the way it used to
If she could just go back somehow and change the now to how it used to be



Slave to the Puppeteer
All of my actions speak louder than words
Painted on face, my true voice never heard
I’m a slave to the puppeteer

He is my master. He is my God
He gives me life right out of the box
His smallest reflex means the world to me
I’m a slave to the puppeteer

Life comes with strings attached
Without strings I can’t react
When too much will kill you
Not enough and you’re as good as dead

Nothing to do hanging around
String from my head to this cross that I’m bound
It’s the life that you hoped for but with no control
Like a slave to the puppeteer


Peaceful Amnesty
I was thinking that the sun may never shine again
Then I opened up my blinds to let the light back in
Sailing on the water, peaceful as an altar

I was looking at the world through less sympathetic eyes
And my whole quest for the truth ended up in only lies
Sailing on the water, peaceful as an altar
And I was free to see the things I’d always failed to see
Peaceful amnesty

I was looking at my life trapped by thoughts that locked me in
So I smashed my window’s pane to breathe the blue sky in
Sailing on the water, the darkness starts to falter
And I was free to see the things I’d always failed to see
Peaceful amnesty

And I was free to feel the way I’d always failed to be
Peaceful amnesty


Out of My Control
How can I have anything but memories?
I would gladly give up everything I own
But it’s out of my control

A painter paints his pictures from the well within
And the blood running through his painting brush are the colors of his soul
And it’s out of his control, and it’s out of my control

Just like sometimes when you run you never find the end
Just when you think you’ve got it you’re right back where you begin
Just to start it all again

I received the message of the one I love
I never took the time to question it cos it something that I know
And I hate to be alone
I gave up everything I own, bleed the colors from my soul
And it’s out of my control

Just like sometimes when you try too hard you just can’t get it right
You do your best to try to get a grip on your own life
But you held it way too tight and you gave up all you own
Bled the colors from my soul and it’s out of your control.
All songs written by Chad Clifford
Copyright 2004 Starlark Music All rights reserved
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